The article I have written for OC87 Recovery Diaries

​I have had two episodes of depression, the most serious lasting from June 2018 to September 2020.

I did not leave my bed or leave the house during these episodes. To be precise, it was two years and three months when I decided to start moving again.

For most of my life, I’ve dealt with depression and anxiety. Sometimes I still do. Sometimes a voice asks me, “Why don’t you end it? Why don’t you kill yourself? Why are you being a chicken shit?”

Does depression feel like going through the motions? I’m existing but not feeling; I’m moving but in emptiness. Rather than loving, I feel loneliness or like I’m in a fog; I can neither see help nor happiness.

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